12/26/2023 0 Comments Spiritually giftedI cried and ran up to her, wanting her to stay home. When I saw my mother put on her shoes, I felt sick to my stomach and knew that she wasn’t coming back. Night time came along, my father told us that my mother and him were going to the store. The day continued, my siblings and my mother were all finally home. I got up and secretly watched my father from behind as he went into each room continuing chanting with anger in his voice. The words he was chanting were not Hmong. I heard my father chanting and burning some incense around the house. The day before my father killed my mother and committed suicide, I fell into a deep sleep and woke up from a nightmare about my mother’s death which I believed was a vision. But maybe people wouldn’t believe you anyway because they will think you are a freak. Maybe these bad things could’ve been prevented. You watch your premonitions unravel as you feel sick to your stomach and wish you told someone. When you are spiritually gifted, you tend to carry dark secrets with you because some things you can’t explain to people because they don’t see and know what you see and know. Few of my relatives have told me that I am spiritually gifted, and that I should accept my calling as a spiritual healer, but I chose my faith instead. The journey to become a spiritual healer and having spiritual gifts is a very lonely and hard journey one must walk alone. There can be consequences to denying your calling. Not everyone who is chosen accepts his/her calling to be a spiritual healer. Sometimes the elders in the family can determine if you are chosen, and they will help you begin the process of accepting your calling by finding your own master to train and guide you. Oftentimes when someone in the family is chosen to be a healer, they become very sick, weak, encounter many spiritual battles, and life and death situations. To be a true shaman, you have to be chosen by your family spiritual guides “ dab neeb” to rise up as a spiritual healer “ txiv neeb”. They believe the spiritual realm coexists with the physical world in which many spirits, such as ancestral, wild, lost, evil, and human spirits can affect humankind. Shamanism is a traditional religion practiced by Hmong people for many generations. I enjoyed sleeping because my dreams were happier and more fun to be with than my reality of watching my parent’s abusive relationship. However, I wasn’t just a lucid dreamer, I was an expert at it. Not everyone who is a lucid dreamer has high capabilities to control their dreams. They can control and have powers in their dreams such as flying, time-traveling, swimming and speaking underwater, etc. Lucid dreamers are individuals who are aware they are dreaming in their dreams. I am a lucid dreamer for as long as I can remember. I’ve always had nightmares and exhausting dreams where I was constantly flying, traveling to another dimension, and watching myself and my siblings sleep. I don’t recall being a good sleeper as a child. Not different because I thought I was special or better than other kids, but different because I saw and heard things most people don’t-spirits and voices.
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